13 June 2019 - 14:46
So I just read an article on vice which https://www.vice.com/en_uk/article/yvxkpv/realizing-youre-a-pedophile-can-make-you-want-to-kill-yourself
80% of P's experience depression because of their sexuality with 90% saying they had thought about killing themselves and 20% saying they have tried to commit suicide and that most P's don't offend as they know that their sexuality is wrong.
"Many people who commit sex crimes against children are not paedophiles – they are situational offenders who are actually more attracted to peers. Likewise, many paedophiles never act on their attraction because they don't want to hurt children."
A lot of them worry about the urge and desire not to download CP and having to resist temptation.
Now I'm scared that I'm just resisting the urge to do things because I know that they are wrong rather than actually not wanting to do it if that makes sense.
I have a diagnosis for OCD and I know I get intrusive thoughts about really random things but this subject of thoughts has been coming back for around 16 years and I have weird dreams about this most nights so how do I know that this set of thoughts isn't me?