6 December 2018 - 9:08
Hey everyone. So things getting on top of me at the moment. At the moment I'm feeling pressured as I'm sure a lot of you are with christmas coming up, the kids expectations, my son is doing his GCSE mocks but doesn't give a s**t so that's causing tension. I had a really bad relapse 2 yrs ago and I still don't feel like I've properly got better from it.
Anyway the last few weeks I've been getting a lot of intrusive thoughts about the past. I'm stuck in that 'what if ' I did this or 'what if ' I did that scenarios. I feel like I've got constant noise going on in my head. I have been coping ok and still managing to function as normal. But today it's all got to much. I feel overwhelmed with anxiety, I've had a big cry. I've got so many doubts rattling round my head, even though I know it's all crap the need for certainty is so strong. I just want some peace .