20 July 2014 - 4:26
Do you find it takes more strength to suppress a thought than it does to "sit with it?" My doctor asked me this just the other day. I have found that it's a double edged sword. Fighting to suppress it almost feels as though I have to physically push it down or out of my mind, and when I am in a state of high anxiety and the thoughts overcome my mind, it's almost unbearable! Just sitting with it causes me great anxiety, I can hardly manage to do it. The anxiety it causes is almost as exhausting as suppressing it, but I feel like it's somehow easier to suppress it than to sit with it. What do you all think?
Also, when suppressing a thought, do you find yourself physically reacting to suppress the thought? I have found that I roll my eyes or count my fingers, stretch my fingers or toes, all kinds of weird stuff! Why do we feel this is all necessary to fight these thoughts off? What good will it do? My doctor asks me of I think that these little "tricks" are the only thing keeping me from being this horrible person my ocd makes me out to be! I know he's right, and I am doing much better, but I've a long road ahead. OCD SUCKS. (Please Excuse my poor choice of words, although I'm sure I could think of worse).