17 September 2016 - 9:44
I've wrote on here before about a major fear i have to do with my soul, or more specifically thinking ive sold my soul. i get intrusive thoughts about it, have done for a long time, eg - I'd sell my soul for this that or the other. I couldnt stop the thoughts, and sometimes i'd go through a ritual in my head, and sometimes i would just put it down to OCD and forget about it. i have a major fear that certain things in my life have been caused by me having this thought in my head and then not doing my rituals basically. anyway, this has been on my mind ALOT in recent months, and I always seem to notice certain things that confirms my thoughts. i'll be driving and i'll see a number plate with triple 6 on it, or a phone number with triple 6 in it etc. granted, i see triple 5's, 4's, 3's etc, but seem to notice the 6's more! I pretty much constantly have thoughts about this fear,well more often than not i think anyway. when i'm at work, i google alot about the subject of my fear, to see what people say about it etc. yesterday i was googling it, for the first time in a couple of weeks because i'd tried not to read about it on google, and when i was a got an e-mail from a recruitment person for a company in reading through Linkedin, telling me about recruitment oppertunities with their company, and the contact number at the bottom included a triple 6 in it, which set me off! I looked at the profile on linkedin, and googled the company website, which included pictures of buildings in London, and i've just got back from london that weekend! i even replied to the e-mail to ask why they had contacted me and they got back to me telling me how it worked on Linkedin and recommended people, but I still thought why on earth me when i'm so far away from Reading! Even the other week i got a spam SMS message on my phone from some Euro Lottery thing saying you'd won whatever, and guess what, the number ended in a triple 6! again it set me off and i had a terrible day! i seem to notice things all the time that relate to my fear, it's usually on my mind whatever, but I just seem to take it as a sign or something that maybe it's to do with my thoughts or confirming my thoughts and it really gets to me. does anybody else have the the same experiences?