seeing things that seem to confirm your OCD thoughts

17 September 2016 - 9:44

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I've wrote on here before about a major fear i have to do with my soul, or more specifically thinking ive sold my soul. i get intrusive thoughts about it, have done for a long time, eg - I'd sell my soul for this that or the other. I couldnt stop the thoughts, and sometimes i'd go through a ritual in my head, and sometimes i would just put it down to OCD and forget about it. i have a major fear that certain things in my life have been caused by me having this thought in my head and then not doing my rituals basically. anyway, this has been on my mind ALOT in recent months, and I always seem to notice certain things that confirms my thoughts. i'll be driving and i'll see a number plate with triple 6 on it, or a phone number with triple 6 in it etc. granted, i see triple 5's, 4's, 3's etc, but seem to notice the 6's more! I pretty much constantly have thoughts about this fear,well more often than not i think anyway. when i'm at work, i google alot about the subject of my fear, to see what people say about it etc. yesterday i was googling it, for the first time in a couple of weeks because i'd tried not to read about it on google, and when i was a got an e-mail from a recruitment person for a company in reading through Linkedin, telling me about recruitment oppertunities with their company, and the contact number at the bottom included a triple 6 in it, which set me off! I looked at the profile on linkedin, and googled the company website, which included pictures of buildings in London, and i've just got back from london that weekend! i even replied to the e-mail to ask why they had contacted me and they got back to me telling me how it worked on Linkedin and recommended people, but I still thought why on earth me when i'm so far away from Reading! Even the other week i got a spam SMS message on my phone from some Euro Lottery thing saying you'd won whatever, and guess what, the number ended in a triple 6! again it set me off and i had a terrible day! i seem to notice things all the time that relate to my fear, it's usually on my mind whatever, but I just seem to take it as a sign or something that maybe it's to do with my thoughts or confirming my thoughts and it really gets to me. does anybody else have the the same experiences? 

17 September 2016 - 14:59

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You really believe you sold your soul? You believe the fact you see the number 6 many times it's a real sign?

17 September 2016 - 15:24

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Hi mai

I have a fear of it, and its what my ocd seems to centre on. So when I see these things I worry that it's a sign or something. And that sends my mind in to overdrive

17 September 2016 - 15:36

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Also I have these awful thoughts constantly, its almost like I'm trying to fend off evil all the time in my head, and it gets really stressful, like if I don't do a certain ritual a certain way after, then me or someone else will be hurt by it in some way, if that makes sense

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I think if you had sold your soul you would not be able to act in a normal life situation, also you wouldnt care that your soul was sold and you would know it was. I think the fear is consuming you and making triple 6 jump out at you

19 September 2016 - 13:44

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hi Thatgirl3

I really am struggling with it to be honest, like you said, the fear consumes you and i find it hard to concentrate, or just get through a day without these thoughts and worry and compulsions all the time!

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i can relate to exactly what you have. I have had a fear of 666 ever since i saw a tv programme about that sort of stuff. What you are describing is purely a coincidence. Your ocd has made you feel paranoid about every time you see that number. Its hard though to try and brush it off. I remember when i was looking to buy a new car i was concerned that the car could be contaminated by the number 666 and a few days later i saw a car the same make i wanted to buy with that number on the reg plate. Scared the crap out of me but i went ahead an bought the make of car i wanted and two years later nothings happened so guess it was just a coincidence.
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Hi Tomd

thanks. like you say it's scary, i have these intrusive thoughts all the time and it makes me think that my thoughts really do have an effect, which then makes my OCD worse! it's a nightmare, but i'm sure you know that. thanks for your reply.

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