2 August 2014 - 3:55
My main OCD issue for approx. the last 5 years has been obsessions about bugs, germs, bacteria, microorganisms etc. So my compulsions are constantly checking myself and making my surroundings 'safe'. I have a long list of compulsions even though 9/10 I never see any bugs. It's not abnormal for me to end up stuck in the bathroom looking at my skin and hair for hours. That was the case today except...my worst fear came true I saw this tiny tiny bug crawling on my glasses, when I looked at it with a magnifying glass it looks like some type of tiny mite. So I looked through my hair and saw more (barely viable) than one crawling up strands of my hair. I've researched bugs etc so much that I could remember reading that dermidex mites are found on all humans but can infest people who have low immune systems. I'm always unwell, in fact I've been in bed for the last two weeks...so I guess it makes sense. The pictures online look like what my husband and I see through the magnifying glass. I'm handling this better than I thought I would but I'm afraid I'm just in shock and I don't want to lose myself in a panic. I researched so much today on how to kill mites so I'm going shopping tomorrow. I also have samples for my doctor. I don't know what to do or think right now except, "Of all people, why is this happening to me!?"