16 June 2017 - 15:28
I have yet to meet a single person who suffers from the type of OCD that I do, and I am really, really hopeful that one of you on here does, since it's very lonely to struggle with something no one understands! My obsessions focus on morality (particularly lying/over-the-top avoidance of lying, apologizing/being forgiven, confessing, intrusive immoral thoughts, fears about if I'm manipulating people or cheating in some way, and inconveniencing others) as well as my Christian faith (obsessively seeking reassurance that I following my faith appropriately, worrying constantly about hell/condemnation, fear of being possessed/demons, though that was more prominent in my younger years, the need to pray in a certain way, etc.). I used to have what I call "symmetrical" OCD [or the need for things to be "just right"] actually since I was about two years old, as well as a need for things to be "just right" but I started developing problems with morality about seven or eight years ago. Just curious if anyone can relate to any of this?