Just need to vent a little

28 June 2017 - 4:01

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Just on here to vent a little

I am studying away but the last few weeks my head hasnt switched off for a minute and my studies have been on the back burner which I cant afford to do. I wish I had a sleep button!

My OCD was never an issue for my undergrad or masters but since going back again it has been off the chart and had to leave on sick for 2 months so it is good that they are flexible but I am at the stage now where I feel myself slipping again but cant pull my head out of my a**e.

I am waiting on a referral to go back to my shrink, he was helpful before, and some people in the uni are very helpful while others not so much so and some peeps there stress me out. I have managed to keep my problems away from most things and pretty functional but lately cant seem to get a grip of the wee sh**.

The way I look at it, I havent let my OCD get in the way of me leading as normal and happy life as I can, it just makes some things a little harder and time consuming, if I pull the finger out and man up I can do this. Im sure lots of peeps can manage and not let it get in the way, just going to be a little harder but hopefully get through it and if I dont not the end of the world.

Its 4am and just typing crap, gonna go try get some sleeps, its pretty late, failing that ill maybe watch Moana or monsters inc

 

12 December 2018 - 23:38

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Just back to vent a little again. My relationship has just ended and she has asked me to get help for my mental health, she is a doctor in a mental health place and thinks I have depression too. I've been so numb to stuff this last year. It's probably for the best, I can work on myself and get the old weeman back again, finish my studies and live my life. She can move on and find someone that is stronger for her and more settled in life and we can both be happier. Least it was amicable and going to try the friends thing, but never seems to work so good.
Next step for me is go see my doc and have a word, take little time for myself and pull my head out of my arse and not let ocd or any other mental health issue get in my way of being happy and having the life I want.
Step 1 go see doc
Step 2 take time for yourself and be happy
Step 3 finish research and thesis, don't care if you pass or not, you've given it everything you could
Step 4 once finish uni go to Australia and get a selfie with a quokka and go see the fam
Step 5 get a puppy
Step 6 be happy and relax

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Im going to just keep thos thread going so i can look back on it and see my progress and aim to get to step 4 in next 16 months.
Just done step 1, doctor has put me on fluoxtiene (however you spell it) I am unsure about medication, i do trust my doc but all my life I have avoided taking medication and pain killers. One worry is that he says that it is used for people that are flat rather than people that are anxious (I am anxious 24/7) I will give them a go and see if any improvements after month or 2 and reassess. I know they take some time to begin to kick in.
Step 1 down, 3 to go......

10 January 2019 - 22:20

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12 weeks and your anxiety rises till that time. What are your expectations for meds? Also what keeps you up till 4am? Were you drinking any caffeine ?

11 January 2019 - 2:47

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My sleep all over the place. Last night went to bed at 2am gave up trying to sleep at 6 and fell asleep about 1pm and woke up at 6pm. Thankfully was a day off work! No caffeine only stimulant really nicotine gum. I no idea what to expect, but I'll find out in few months. Maybe give me bit of respite from my head keep going, maybe lift mood a bit. I was in something else when I was much younger but gave it up before repeat prescription time. I'll try stick this one out if notice it helps after few months

11 January 2019 - 19:33

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Hi there. When prescribed medicines, it can be for a long time... Years in fact... It is important to try and be persistent and consistent with whatever approaches we are using to treat the ocd. Medicines can take quite a while before the therapeutic effects happen. Then the doctor can adjust the dosage while we keep going. I could well be on medicines for the foreseeable future. But that has to be okay.

Wannabe 

 

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Hey wannabe hope you well. yeah I asked him how long he thinks I will be on it and he said could be a while. I have to go back and see him in 6 weeks. I was put on lustral about 17 years ago but stopped as I hated thought of medication. Ill give it a go. Just going through a bit of a depressive episode hopefully just a wee blip gonna go get rest of my steps done

12 January 2019 - 21:17

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Yep, it can certainly be done. Things can get easier. Have a look at the 'All our information ' section in the blue footer at the bottom of this page. There's a lot of information about, and ocd action is a very reputable website. It has been an absolute lifesaver for me. 

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12 January 2019 - 23:24

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Thanks I'll check it out

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