11 January 2019 - 3:42
So this is what happened
I was in the cinema when i saw my aunt tickling my cousin. When i remembered i once was tickling that same cousin and she didn’t wanted me to and i still did even though she didn’t wanted to be touched
Maybe i did it to bother her or maybe it bothered me that she didn’t wanted me to tickle her so i did it anyway
And i don’t mean the kind of tickles that make you laugh but the ones that make you sleepy and relaxed
I didn’t touch her somewhere innapropiate i would never do NEVER
I cant remember when did this happened. I don’t know if i was 18 or younger i just cant remember and i don’t want to.
i feel bad and embarrassed and scared and ashamed and a monster and hopeless
Im scared that i did damage to my cousin i love her so freakin much
I didn’t do it with malice not to traumatize her or something like that and i don’t think i did it with a sexual intention or something like that
But now im scared i did
Not because she has shown signs or anything because we have a really good relationship we have been playing and laughing together
But what if i scar her for life?
I dont know what to do i would never harm her and it hurts me to think that i did maybe