18 October 2014 - 23:08
Haven't been on here for a while. It's awkward; when I'm having a bad time with the OCD and can't be bothered with anything, I can't be bothered to explain what the problem is - it's usually fiddly to explain!
The problem I'm finding at the moment is that I'm always fighting the OCD - if I didn't fight to try and make the compulsion stop each time, it would just go on and on indefinitely. And that makes it hard to find the extra energy to go one further and fight one to actually not do it at all, and get rid of it. Does anyone else find this? Advice?
Also, whenever I try to tackle my OCD, I get bogged down in thinking about whether I'm thinking about it the right way or not. Trying to find the "right" attitude to get past the OCD has become a compulsion in itself, I think - but I don't know how to stop it. If I try to "just not think about it too much" or to "drop it for the moment", I start fiddling with that also. Has anyone else found this? What can I do about it? It's a Catch-22. I don't know what to do with this at all, and it's exhausting.
Thanks very much,