10 December 2017 - 12:21
I' ve been living with OCD for 3 years now. I am afraid of HIV contamination and I have had like 20 tests in 3 years.
Yesterday i was drunk and I made out with a girl in a club. Today, i can't control my anxiety.
I remember i was controlling my mouth to be sure i had no cut, and remember to not have had sex with her becouse of my fear, and becouse i didn t have a condom.
Anyway, like everytime i go out and make out with a girl, i am wondering if ,becouse of alchol, i had sex with her and don't remember. She really wanted becouse she asked me to do it in the bathroom. Moreover my memories are confused. So I'm really afraid.
In your opinion it is possible that i have done it without remember? Or it's just my OCD that is speaking?