15 September 2014 - 17:02
I don't know what to do. Once again I've not managed to have a blood sample taken - this time it wasn't even about that, but about why I haven't any appetite, but the fact remains that I still haven't been able to do it. Been crying a bit.
And I've been e-mailing another homeopath. Somebody on another OCD forum recommended this one to me as a miracle-worker. (I've just parted company with the other one, because we weren't getting anywhere.) But it's no good. One, she's in Australia (consulting via Skype), and her idea is that to deal with the time difference we should have the appointments early in the morning. Well, I'm not fit for anything in the mornings. Two, her policy, given in a way that doesn't really anticipate any argument, is not to tell you the name of the remedy she's giving you - and I could never get an unknown remedy past my OCD. Three, she charges £270 a session. £270. And that's not me paying, it's my family. If I could be fairly sure it would work, that would be one thing... but for a long shot? I couldn't do that.
For those of you that don't know me: my OCD itself refuses to let me take any kind of psychiatric medication, and CBT hasn't got anywhere. It's the peculiar way the thing works: it's not that I'm scared to not do these things - it's just that I can't make myself not do them.
So there goes the homeopath, and I can't do a blood test. What am I going to do?