Dogs and cats!

This post has been thanked 2 times. 19 March 2019 - 19:41

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Hi everyone. Well I'm just back from a couple of days away. There were four cats, and three dogs. All lovely and affectionate,  they all took their turn on my lap. Were they perfectly clean?  I really don't know.  My love for these rescue pets overrode any fear of germs. They were lovely. I adore them. Anything on my clothes? I don't know,  but I'm thinking it's okay.  Without washing hands,  I visited a fast food restaurant,  and paid using my bank cards and touch screen. Will myself or anyone else become ill?  I don't know but it has always been okay before. This is exposure response prevention,  a part of cognitive behavioural therapy.  I can still see my therapist sitting in his office, asking me to use the  techniques he taught me. Going to a supermarket to pick up a potato, then picking up an apple. It was almost impossible to do when I first started.  A lot of time and experience has passed, and it's almost down to an art now.  I absolutely adore the dogs and cats.  I shudder to think what is on all the stuff I've touched, and the steering wheel of the car.  And I eat while I'm driving!!!  There maybe germs at the petrol station... But I had to fuel the car or we wouldn't have got home. I paid there using my bank cards too... Okay? I don't know, but I'm thinking it's okay,  I can't change it now. We'll give it a few days and see. What is on my computer now?  I really don't know, but I'm confident that we will survive unscathed. 

We had jacket potatoes for tea tonight. I just took them out of the bag, pricked them with a fork before putting them in the microwave oven. We had them with butter, grated cheese and baked beans.  Real nice! Safe to eat? They have been everytime so far. My jeans have a few marks on them. Are they safe? Again, so far no illness. We'll have to wait and see won't we?  

We had satnav in the car to bring us home today... A touch screen of course. .. Clean enough?  Do I dare to say yes? Mmmm, maybe! ! Thousands of people do these things every day. If it was dangerous,  thousands of people would be ill. This is evidence in our favour. Okay, Time to make a hot drink. God bless you for reading. 

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This post has been thanked 1 time. 19 March 2019 - 22:31

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Well done wannabefree, glad you are managing your ocd so well. I love dogs and cats too, they don't judge and give so much love back. I have been around dogs, cats and horses my whole life and can honestly say I have never been ill from them. They are very good for my mental health that's for sure!

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Well done wannabefree, glad you are managing your ocd so well. I love dogs and cats too, they don't judge and give so much love back. I have been around dogs, cats and horses my whole life and can honestly say I have never been ill from them. They are very good for my mental health that's for sure!

21 March 2019 - 17:59

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Hi there, and thank you for your kind words. Still no ill-effects to report. So all is okay so far. We went to coffee morning at church today and ate toast. I didn't wash my hands after driving the car. Clean? I don't know. I know that I unconsciously place my hands on my lap whilst sitting down. Anything on the toast? I don't know. But it has always been okay before. And it could be that everyone does that anyway. It's chicken for tea tonight, from the freezer. I handled the drumsticks from the bag to the oven tray, washed my hands once, then put the tray in the oven. Clean enough? I don't know. Next it was jacket potatoes. Pricked with a fork, and put into the microwave oven, without washing my hands. Anything  dangerous? I don't know,  but as it was alright last time I did it.  So it must be okay. What is on my computer? I don't know, but the evidence suggests that everything will turn out okay. I still haven't washed my hands. I will be playing music keyboards tonight. I won't wash my hands first,  as they appear to be clean and dry. If I start washing, when is it okay to stop? I have to handle the taps, and then the towel, then the door handle to exit the bathroom. Sometimes it is easier not to bother. My hands are clean enough, not perfect maybe, but clean enough.  My clothes are clean enough, not perfect maybe , but good enough. My own evidence backs this up. So relax. This takes a lot of practice. .. It's  certainly not easy to begin with. We have to persevere. If I wash my hands anymore today, it will be minimal, and only after using the loo. I really don't know if this will be adequate, but is what Non-Ocd'ers do without concern, every day. If I get tummy-ache , I'll admit to it, but my feelings are that everything will turn out okay. We'll have to wait and see,  won't we?  And if it is so safe for me, then it is definitely okay for others too. Let's wait and see.  God  bless you for reading. 

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1 May 2019 - 13:33

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Hi everyone. .. Well... Big ocd challenge yesterday. I went to my recycling bin in the public passageway at the back of my home. There's more dogpoo on the path. It had been disturbed and there is a footprint on the path. Not mine fortunately.  It freaked me out for hours , and I am still stressed now, some twenty four hours later. But it is easing slowly. Very slowly. But it is definitely easing. Is there anything on my indoor carpets?  I don't know,  but in fairness, it's always turned out okay in the past, and my own evidence backs this up. I've just got to wait and see, however much the ocd invades my thoughts. It's sure not easy is it? I'm gonna go out the front door today,  to go shopping, anything to distract me from the stress whilst it continues to ease off. I won't do anything else about the dog poo. It's not my responsibility. I just need to leave it alone. Continue my day, as best I can. More later. God bless you for reading. 

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1 May 2019 - 20:01

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Hi again. .. The concern about the dog poo still remains, but it is just in the background now. I went out, calling at the doctors for a totally unrelated problem. Coped with the door handles as normal, going in and out of the surgery. So that bit is still okay. I"m hoping to be able to pick up stuff from my living room floor perhaps tomorrow,  before going to the church coffee morning, with the brilliant sausage rolls.  Mmmm.... I need to get back to playing my electronic organ, without being concerned about the pedals. My shoes are as clean as they always have been, right from when I was a child, before the ocd took hold. The evidence backs this up. I've just got to relax now, fall back onto my successes, and wait while the intrusive thoughts calm down, and I can feel free again. Yes... I'll wait until tomorrow,  then tidy up a bit, then go safely to the coffee morning and enjoy a sausage roll and cup of milky coffee. Mmmm. .. delicious. Tonight I will sleep.  I went to the gym this afternoon,  to fill in some paperwork. Then drove the car back. What is on the steering wheel? I don't know, but it has been okay up to now, I have the evidence to defend myself. Okay, that's it for now. God bless you for reading. 

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3 May 2019 - 18:48

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Hi everyone. Well I went to coffee morning, had the sausage roll and milky coffee. Yesterday evening I partook of a buffet meal. Really nice. Everything handled with fingers, chocolate cake, real nice! The thing is that everyone else in the room was eating in exactly the same way. Will anyone become ill? I don't know, but it has been fine so far and in the past.  I drove the car home afterwards, and then again today. I guess it will all turn out okay. It did last time! So let's wait and see... Time for evening meal.  More later. God bless you for reading. 

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7 May 2019 - 20:37

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Hi everyone. 

Well,  it appears that nothing happened. No sickness to report so far. It seemed such a massive exposure to have nothing happen. But the evidence suggests that things really are okay. I've resisted the urge to ask anyone. Just left it for others to ask me, which they haven't yet. To be honest, As long as I don't keep referring to it, they never will. So it was a great evening out, with a lovely buffet meal afterwards. Mmmm. It is Coffee morning at church in a couple of days , with the lovely sausage rolls again. Something new is coming up. Today I registered to be a blood donor. It is something I haven't done for a great many years. Is it safe these days? I don't know, but I  have a few weeks wait. Time enough to explore thoughts about it beforehand of course. .. Mmmm. I'm wondering already.... Are any of you been donating blood? What's the experience like? God bless you for reading. 

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10 May 2019 - 20:21

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Hi again everyone. I will report back on the blood doning situation after the event .  It's a while yet, so nothing to worry about. Other things will need to come first.   I had pizza and garlic bread for tea tonight. All handled by fingers. The way pizza is meant to be eaten! At least, that's how it happens on TV!  So... It just might be okay, yes? Mmmm... Tomorrow is another day, and it can be done... We visit the grand children tomorrow, followed by a visit to the gym. I haven't been going because of other commitments. Will it be clean?  I don't know, but it was okay last time... The abdominal curl machine is the big challenge. .. It has leather straps which have cracks in. It cannot be cleaned. So everyone who uses it takes the same risks, just the same as supermarket trollies and baskets. The rowing machine builds up my strength. .. I hope! But it's exhausting. It's only for an hour or so. Next week I'm going on holiday. It will be nice to have a few days away. ..  God bless you for reading, 

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19 May 2019 - 15:17

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Hi again everyone. Took some incredible risks whilst at the seaside. Did a lot of touching stuff in shops. From clothing, to souvenirs,  to cooked food. Believe it or not,  it is possible to buy marmite flavoured seaside rock! We used a lot of public conveniences... Mainly invalidity ones, as my wife was in her wheelchair a lot of the time. I did a lot of the driving. I do rely on the passengers in the car, to give me directions. But the steering wheel? Was that okay? I really don't know. But we did a lot of eating with fingers in fast food restaurants. Anybody become ill? If they did, I never found out. Drank gallons of milky coffee. Ate chips and battered sausages, mmmm, delicious!  Is money clean? I doubt it somehow, yet, in a fish and chip shop? But it is what has always happened,  right from when I was a child, and we have survived. That's not reassurance but evidence. I wore the same jeans all week, and to be brilliantly honest, they haven't been washed for a while! They do look okay, they'll have to do, I can't change anything now. The holiday accommodation was a cross between a caravan and log cabin. Door handles? I don't know, we didn't need to clean anything. What about the waste bin? It opened with a pedal, using a bin liner. That had to be left by the main bins cos they were already overflowing. That is left to the owners of the camp site. Site fees pay for it. We had pizzas for one meal, handled with fingers of course. Hot direct from the oven.  Delicious!  Okay... My hands won't be perfect, but they don't need to be, they never have... This is evidence. .. One afternoon I had the privilege to try a jacuzzi hot tub. Wow! Talk about relaxing! The water was comfortably hot. It took some maneuvering to get in, it smelt like a public swimming pool. But Chlorine is safe... It always has been. I had the sun beating down, but  I  still felt cold when getting out wet! Was it clean? I don't know but do think so. Sitting on a towel to get dry, putting on a tee shirt to get warm again. Then having a nice hot drink and biscuit afterwards. In fact, I think I'll have a hot drink and biscuit right now! Without washing hands first. It won't be necessary after using the computer. We'll just have to wait and see, won't we? God bless you for reading. 

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20 May 2019 - 15:20

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Okay.... I had the biscuits. .. No ill-effects to report. So far so good. I prepared lunch, and will be doing the evening meal too. For lunch I did quarter pound burger sandwiches, with lettuce, cucumber and cherry tomatoes. Delicious! I washed my hands only after handling the frozen raw burgers into the oven. Just once. Then I handled bread and butter, and salad stuff. Ate with bare fingers... It was actually easier than using a knife and fork. Clean? I don't know. Are frozen burgers dangerous anyway? Mmmm. I don't know, but rinsed my hands once to be on the safe side. Just the once. I  will have some cheese biscuits in a moment. How are you all getting on? We need to share our successes. It's sure not easy is it? Though, with practice, the anxious thoughts become just a little less intrusive . They become easier to dismiss, over time. Let's keep pushing on through the darkness. God bless you for reading. 

Wannabe 

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