26 March 2020 - 22:21
Hi this might be a bit long but i’m a 17 year old girl who had HOCD before when i was 14 i got over it so easily and have had a happy few 3 straight years having no thoughts about women. Sadly it all came back at christmas and now it’s gotten even worse. I’ve started overthinking so much that i keep thinking i fancy my friends and that i’m scared i’ve turned myself gay. I would get anxiety when i don’t have anxiety because i kept thinking oh you like girls now when i would look at pictures and not get anxiety, which isn’t true. I know deep down i’m straight but i’m scared i’m never going to get back to my old self. Looking back on when i had it before it seemed so much easier getting over it but now i’m scared i will never be able to get over it ever Any tips? I’ve heard of back door spikes and i’m really sure this is one. And every time i see i pretty girl i feel sick because in my head my brain just keeps saying you fancy her, you like her, you want to sleep with her!!! All of which i know aren't true. I need some advice if anyone has ever been this deep into their hocd that it just starts to feel so real that it drives you crazy!!