14 Mar 2017
(1 month 2 weeks)
2 weeks 6 days ago
I'm a 22 year old who recently developed contamination OCD during my masters degree due to fear of the chemicals in the lab. I have since left uni and I'm hoping to beat OCD and start enjoying life again!
My contamination OCD only started a couple of months ago (although I've always been more anxious than normal) but It has rapidly spiralled to the point where I struggle to get out of bed, dress, eat and do basically anything. Its progressing so rapidly that every day I have new fears. I've yet to start any therapy, but I'm worried that I'm so severe that I won't be able to get better. Every time I try ERP at home it makes me worse and I'm too scared to keep at it. Has anyone ever been in my position and recovered?
I'm so sorry to sound so dramatic, but I'm honestly past breaking point. My contamination ocd started due to my anxiety in the labs for my masters degree and a few accidents I had in there. I ended up coming home in January but my ocd has now reached a horrendous level. Where at first I couldn'ttouch anything I had taken to uni, I now am afraid of everything. I cannot wear any clothes in the house, I can't go outside, some days I refuseto eat, drink or sit down. Today I can't even getout of bed.
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I'm going through a very similar issue right now, as my ocd is so bad I'm too afraid for the erp to work, and my meds made me faint so I can't take them. I'm sorry for not being able to help,but I wanted you to know you're not alone.