For the first time, this post isn't about my HOCD, but just my general mental pain.
I feel just conpletely lost, like I have no where to go. For years, I've been thinking everyday that I should take the train and leave everything behind. Because that's better than suicide, but I don't want to keep on living, because I know these thoughts will sill be alive.
*** I just want to say, I don't want critics here, just constructive comments, please!***
I have always wanted to try psychedelics. Always.
But I am deadly scare of it.
There' been research on how shrooms may help sufferers of OCD, and since I am really realky tired of this condition, I am willing to try it out. I don't to live like this anymore... I want to see clearly, without my ego and face the real things.
Hello! I thought that I was doing well recently, but today something that always bothered me came up... I don't know if it's fake memories, I don't think so, it seems really real... but anyways, I'll try my best to explain these thoughts that are triggering that I had when I was a child.
Honestly, I hate anger. I hate being angry, but yes sometimes little thigs sets me off, and I remember bring treated like a kid even slightly was one.
People not believing in my independence, to teach my things I've already learn, to think I can't understand...