Just when I thought it couldn't get any worse, I started getting terrible thoughts about my relationship. I love my partner will all of my heart and I am sure about our relationship but my ocd has recently targeted people's flaws and my partner has been no exception. I feel so guilty, everytime he sends me a selfie i pick it apart and point out "flaws" in his appearance and I hate It! I find him extremely attractive so why am I even doubting this rn???? Whyyyyy am I questioning whether Im attracted to my boyfriend when I know for a fact I'm extremely attracted to him. Wth??
So, Ive been on here before but I deleted my account. Ive been suffering from ocd really bad for about 3 months now. I suffer especially bad from pocd and ocd revolving around personal hygiene but I have also had intrusive thoughts revolving racism, bestiality, incest, and more. Just basically whatever my brain can throw at me to make me hate myself..and it's worked. Ive self harmed, ive considered suicide, ive gone to counseling and I'm on medication all because of because of my ocd.