I lost both brothers last year. My most recent one in September. By October I was experiencing symptoms of POCD. I haven’t been able to fully grieve and fail to even fully accept my brothers death. I feel like my pocd May have been brought on by the amount of grief I have suffered but I can’t be sure. I worry it’s been there all along (not that I remember it) or that I’m using grief as an excuse.If anyone has any ideas pls lemme know
IDoes anyone else feel like you over come a thought/feeling and then it is replaced by something worse? I could obsess over something for a while eg. Thinking something or worrying about doing something and then I’ll sort of get over it and then it’ll be replaced by an even worse thought. I think I’ve finally got to the bottom of all my thoughts just one at the moment which is a hard one to get through.
I hi, I’m super nervous about posting this because even saying these thoughts make me question everything! In 2017 I lost 2 brothers to suicide, the latest one being in September. By October I was experiencing sexually intrusive thoughts about children and that I was abusive. I study a course which is centred around criminology so we deal with topics like this which I think may have been my trigger as these thoughts were not here until I went to the lecture on sexual violence and it just hit me.