Hi I'm sorry for posting a zillion times over the same old same old.
I don't enjoy it I promise. Its the only way to cope for me which is just a nightmare as it never stops.
I have just decided to say this one last thing. From now on I will have to try to take advice, or post without ruminating, just with progress i hope
I don't see myself recovering at the moment but when my cbt starts I will update you on it.
So I let my guard down for a moment during my OCD battle...
Hi does anyone relate to feeling impulsive in general..I'm not sure if it's the correct way of describing it.
Say I need to be somewhere by a certain time I will wait till the last minute then rush and panic...and I'll do it again and again when I know I could get ready earlier?
If someone is waiting for me I tend to do things that could wait till later and hold them up..
Or if I'm performing a task and I see an easier way to do it I'll still stick with the difficult way sometimes...?
I keep trying to find simple ways to explain my worries.
I'm sorry for the multiple posts I'm just so ill day after day I don't know how else to cope.
Has anyone ever felt like after an intrusive thought they slightly acted on it, or just started to think well "how WOULD that happen?" "what if I just did that, how would I do that?" almost allowing my mind to ponder because I knew inside I did not want to act atall. I felt calm about that.