Hi Everyone,I was thinking out loud today, and something struck me !I never had a great self-confidence despite all successes in my life including professional career...For me Pure O started when I was at the lowest point in my life, where my self-confidence has been deeply shaken...Could Pure O OCD be a direct consequence of a very low self-esteem? Do you think it could come from the fear of the self?Happy to read your view on this !
I have been thinking about it so much that it now feels like I want it, although I know in my heart that it doesn't add up.It feels like the anxiety is gone and that I wouldn't mind it to be true, I hate it. Almost like if I am self sabotaging myself. How can I go from being a proud 32 years old heterosexual guy to questioning all my convictions to here?I loved my body, never wished to become someone else and now it almost feels like a lie.I hate it, I wish it never came to my mind, it's ripping my life apart.
I am 32 and I always have been with women only all my life... My libido hasn't been the best over the past few years due to a burn out 5 years ago. This is when obsessive questioning (existential, pedophile, convinced I had ADHD, candida, psychosis,...) started alongside with health anxiety
I have been diagnosed with OCD by my psychiatrist and therapist, but it feels like I made it up or influenced their diagnosis.
I started to have HOCD like thoughts during quarantine and the first weeks I was able to see the non sense of it.
I hope this is a stage too, because my life has been taken away from me, I never imagined myself in this awful situation.
Sometimes it feels like I enjoy it, although it doesn't add up at all when you look at my life so far.
I was happy with being heterosexual, I enjoyed very much looking at g
I am in the same mindset as yours, even worse, I am 32 and I have always been straight even though my brain is telling me the opposite.
I am in a happy relationship since almost 3 years, and never had a gay thought in my life as far as I can recall.
It went nuts during quarantine
No I have been diagnosed with OCD and currently having a mix of HOCD and TOCD, and I am going through all you've mentioned.
I am a 32 straight man and this came out of nowhere for me during quarantine 5 months ago.
I always loved being a guy and never questioned it, now it feels l