OCD washing machine

OCD Washing Machine When I wake in the morning my head is clear. Within minutes I’ve filled it with intrusive thoughts, flashbacks, Obsessive behaviour and compulsion. I add a little bit of hyper vigilance and over responsibility and top it off with a cup of guilt, shame and despair. Next, I put my head on a daily wash and spin cycle which lasts until I fall asleep exhausted, usually by mid morning. Only when I awake the cycle hasn’t finished and we go again. Can’t understand why I’m so tired all the time, can’t understand why I crave peace........