Years of ocd part 1

Its been years since im dealing with ocd.i was little when this problem started..it was just start with a simple thoughti go to school with my father...what happens if i go to school with some one else?) I started thinking about this for a lot of time.i had some fictional thoughts....the problem started when i felt that i can not stop them. I had problem afraiding of germs...i started washing my hands a hundrad times....i checked the doors are closed at nights for many times....i wanted evry thing to be natural....i did not use sprays or other things for my body and so i smelled funny.... I grew up and so did my ocd...i had thoughts started with what if......for example what if in the street, the place i put my hands on contains a special drug that go in to my body and increases my brain function,so the succeses i make are not mine and only the effects of the drugs??what if when im walking someone put cocaine in my pocket and police arrest me for that reason...i started breathing in simmilar patterns....sometimes i looked funny in the eyes of other people...i checked the tables at school for being clean and my class mates were talking or playing...it took a lot of time so i invented something in my mind...i start telling myselfi dont know how but i have a unlimited shelter which protects me from dirts)and i kept telling this to my self most of the times...i asked people around me if they had put something in my pocket....and so on .....i went to high school....in all this years i thought its not good to see a phycologist because they have bad effects in our health....